I feel like I think about this a lot.
It is a funny thing.
When I put myself out there, I try my best to be the true me, I try my best to show that I am down to earth, that I am nice, and that I am genuine in what I say and do. (Even saying those things about myself makes me feel like I sound up myself!)
But not everyone’s perception of me is these things. And that makes me sad, makes me wonder where the hell did I go wrong? So I analyze, everything I have said, or done. Worry constantly about what I am about to say or do! Which is hard for me as I’m used to just saying it, especially once you get to know me and I feel comfortable with you! God knows what will come out!
I think back to when I was in Primary school, I was hanging out with The Who’s who of the school, a new girl arrived and she was being singled out, being made to feel isolated, not accepted. I felt for her and took the time to get to know her. The result was my original group dropped me like a sack of spuds! Their perception was that I had turned my back on them for the new kid. I hadn’t of course, I just wanted to include everyone and to make everyone feel welcome, a part of the crew, for everyone to get along.
That hasn’t changed even as an adult I feel the same way. Sometimes it gets me into trouble as I tend to see both sides, and just want everyone to get along! But others perspective of what I am doing, or what I am saying may come across another way.
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